It's been awhile

I've just had nothing to say, really. Till now.

I really didn't like the political choices we had over the last year but I am impressed that a majority of people in our country had the guts to vote for a black man because he was the better man.

I've been out of work on disability and unemployment far too long that I'm beginning to think one of my references is bad mouthing me.

My wife has developed a taste for kinky threesomes but only in story form when I talk to her during foreplay. She seems to be excited by picking up a stranger and having him fuck her hard while I watch. She got really excited when I told her a story of us fucking in a dark rest area of a highway and other men watched us then joined in. I'm cool with it but I seriously wonder if she would like to go to a swingers club at least to watch and have others watch us. I mean she really gets off when I tell her these stories and almost always begs me to fuck her. I counted three orgasms during one session.

Lately, we've been arguing though. Mainly, about my inability to get a job (although the unemployment checks are almost double her pay - but she has medical coverage) but we've also argued about her family, my family and a number of other things that I can't get into.

I actually don't mind the arguments so much because, let's face it, we're human and we're gonna disagree at least every once in awhile. But when my wife argues she gets nasty verbally. She always gets away from what angers her or me and berates me, my family, my skills around the house and lately she is convinced that I don't want to go back to work and that I am not looking for a job. She is very nasty in how she puts things too. I never used to fall into that trap and do the same to her but I can't take it anymore and I sometimes slip.

The oddest thing is that she thinks that once we stop arguing, I am supposed to forget all the nasty things she says and get over the argument. Ahh but that's not so easy for me. The comments she makes are very hurtful and I'm positive she means them to hurt me. It could take me DAYS to get over them so the way I deal with it is to not speak to her. She thinks I'm just trying to be nasty and maybe it is nasty from her perspective but the way I was brought up is that if you have nothing nice to say to someone then say nothing at all so that's what I do. One other thing, she never admits she's wrong and/or apologizes for the nasty comments.

We've had dust-ups basically 4 times in the last 2 weeks. The most recent was yesterday morning and I've barely spoken to her except to say the essentials that I need to say to her like things about our son or appointments that we have to work our lives around or to pass the veggies at the dinner table.

Last night I got into bed at 10PM and was starting to watch TV but she followed me in so I just rolled over and went to bed. Tonight, I am watching TV in the living room and she's in the bed room. I'm waiting for her to fall asleep. It's almost 11PM which is way past her bed time (some times she's sleeping by 9:30). I think she's waiting for me, though. This has been going on for a few nights now. Usually she's in bed and watching TV so I come in, get in bed and roll over to go to sleep. I'm pretty sure it annoys her but that's not the intent, I'm just ignoring her.

I think she wanted to fuck the other night but I really could not tell. She rarely initiates sex (maybe 3 or 4 times over the last 14 years!) and is not very good at it. Seriously, the closest she gets is "I'm going to take a shower." which I think is short hand for "Please fuck me".

I've gotten 4 brief blow jobs over the last 14 years - all of which I've had to ask for. I asked for one a few weeks ago and what I got was "You know I don't like them." To get her to touch me, I have to actually take her hand and put it on my cock. This is the same woman who loves when I lick her pussy and stick my fingers up her ass and rarely ever has to ask me to do any of this.

So, back to the other night. Her way to tell me may have been, "I'm only wearing panties to bed tonight." Oh yeah, that got me excited ((eye roll)). Honestly, it almost did give me a chubby, until I realized she meant granny panties. I was also still angry with her so I did not bite (lick or stroke).

The real excitement this week is that I am going to the Giants/Eagles playoff game on Sunday. It's going to be cold but I am ready for it. I have electric socks, a hoodie, a fleece, winter coat, Thinsulate(r) gloves, wool hat and a blanket. My brother in law and I are planning to have cheese steaks and Italian sausage for the tailgate. He brings beer and I bring scotch. With the game at 1PM, I should have a good buzz going by 10:30AM. Boy do I need that!

I'm in stitches!

It's just so funny how a year's worth of pain can end in some serious pain, even more serious pain killers and 15 staples.

I spent the last year or so with pain in my right leg and increasingly unable to stand for shorter and shorter lengths of time. Around Christmas, I was standing hunched over and I began to use a cane while walking. I also began to use those electric carts in stores while shopping. We even bought a wheel chair to use when those carts were not available.

My doctor diagnosed spinal stenosis and severely compressed discs in my L3, L4 and L5 vertebrae. Spinal stenosis is basically a problem I was apparently born with - the vertebrae are malformed and begin to squeeze the nerves that come off the spinal cord. My case was severe enough that without surgery I would eventually be unable to stand. In effect, I had an old man's back in a young man's body.

I had surgery to shave those vertebrae so they don't squeeze the nerves coming off the spinal column. I went into the hospital two weeks ago. The operation was 3 hours long and the incision was 6 inches long from the top of ass crack up, sealed with 15 staples.

I was in pretty serious pain the first night but I was out of bed and walking the next morning. I went home from the hospital the morning after that and now I can walk and stand normally.

I can even fuck the wife better than before!